Assalamualaikum anddddd hello. It's been such a long time (I say this every time, don't I? LOL)
But yeah, the fact is I don't have time to write. Or maybe I think that my plate is already full now and I love the sleep I get more. Asiyah Amni is crawling all over the place now, and whenever she sees a laptop all she wants is just to bang on it. Or close it. Sooo writing while she's awake is so not happening.
I digress. Anyway, alhamdulillah, finally I'll be graduating soon, early next month. I can't believe now how stressed I was of being left behind, that I considered quitting. But only in my head, deep down in the darkest place in my heart. But I told myself that the end was just soooo close, sometimes you don't realise it until you finally reach it. That's what I keep repeating to myself. All those bad, negative thoughts are just a sign of how weak our imaan is, how little faith we have in Allah and ourselves. And fighting those inner demons are what makes you human. Alhamdulillah, I made it.
And I have a little girl here with me, how amazing is that? MasyaAllah. I wouldn't trade it for the world.
Looking back, eventhough I kept getting sick while pregnant, choosing to taking a break from my studies which few could understand... I did feel all alone. No one was going through what I did. My batchmates who were pregnant as well, their pregnancies weren't like mine. They were able to finish sooner than me. But you know, fate has a way of creeping back at you. When I look back, either way I wouldn't have been able to finish sooner. And it's fine because we all have our priorities. No one is the same and only we know best about our life.
All you got to do is be strong, keep a close connection with the Creator. stay positive always.
Whatever He put you to, He'd bring you through...
I'm going to officially be a doctor soon... and the weight is bearing down on me.
May Allah ease our paths, and should we ever go astray, may His love guide us back to His path.
|my little girl, just a bit over a month old, in my arms, on the way back to Bandung.|
Kita hanya manusia, dan manusia sering terlupa. Marilah mengingatkan sesama kita, moga berjumpa di syurga~