Assalamualaikum.... Terasa nak mencoretkan sesuatu di sini.
Saat untuk mentidakserabutkan keserabutan di kepala. Menulis itu terapi... Kadang-kadang kepala membuak-buak meminta untuk disalurkan ke mana-mana. Nah, silalah salurkan sepuasnya.

Terbaca satu blog tadi tentang dakwah seorang doktor. Ya, seorang doktor itu mempunyai peluang dakwah yang tinggi! Kerana merekalah orang yang dipercayai oleh pesakit.. Faktor percaya itu ada. Jadi, dakwah sangat mudah dilakukan.

Namun setelah beberapa bulan mula clinical ni, saya rasa boleh dihitung dengan jari berapa kali saya berusaha memberi 'sesuatu' kepada pasien dan keluarga. Paling pun, memujuk mereka supaya bersabar dan berfikiran positif, melayan mereka dengan santun.

(Janganlah sesekali menganggap pasien ni sesuatu yang menyusahkan... Pasienlah yang mencuri masa tidur kita, disebabkan pasienlah kita hilang waktu bersama keluarga dan teman... hmm... Memang itu tugas doktor kan? Dan seseorang itu tidak pernah meminta untuk sakit. Sedangkan, daripada merekalah kita dapat banyak belajar. Manalah taknya doktor yang baru lulus asyik kena marah, kalau sikap sewaktu clinical begini. Kemudian kita marah kenapalah MO-MO ini sangat kejam? Oh...)

Berbalik kepada topik, disebabkan orang sekeliling kita juga jarang buat sesuatu, bila kita nak mulakan, pasti agak kekok. Tapi mengapa malu kalau membawa kebaikan kan? :) Jadi harus lebih semangat lepasni.
Biar kita yang mempengaruhi orang^^ Masakan doktor mahu ikut-ikutan aja orang lain kan?  

Cumanya.. pernah tak alami, bila kita berusaha 'sampaikan' sesuatu, pihak yang menerima mengatakan 'baik ustazah' atau perkataan yang sama waktu dengannya? Oh bunyinya seperti memerli bukan? Ish. Spoil betul.
Sakit hati dan macam-macam lagi... hoho. Mungkin harus dikoreksi sedikit hatinya... Karena kita beramal bukan untuk manusia lain. tapi kerana Allah... Jadi mengapa harus terasa dengan suara-suara nakal orang lain? Tak coollah. Dah buat kebaikan, lupakan saja amal tersebut. Pasti ada makhluk yang mengingat dan mencatat:) dan pasti, DIA yang Melihat.

Bagaikan kita sedang menghadapi ujian praktikal... Setiap gerak-geri kita waktu itu diperhatikan oleh penguji! Kita buat, buat dan buat, dokter tick, tick dan tick. Kadang-kadang, kalau salah, kena tolak markah. Kadang-kadang, tak ditolak cuma tak dapat markah je. Akhir sekali, dihitung totalnya. Lulus ga ya?
Terkadang markah akhirnya kita tak dapat tahu pun...

Sebegitu jugalah kita dan kehidupan kita... Ujian untuk melihat siapa yang paling baik amalnya. Namun bezanya, setiap kebaikan yang dibuat, dibalas berganda-ganda.. Kesalahan yang satu, dosanya ya itu, cuma satu. Boleh lagi nak hilangkan dengan taubat, amal soleh, sedekah. Banyak...

Atas Rahmat Allah juga, sekelip mata boleh diampunkanNya, barangkali atas amalan kita yang ikhlas disisiNya atau apa saja kehendakNya....

Whenever we feel that we're losing our way, that feeling itself should make us strive to get back to our old rhythm again. Sometimes Allah gives us that feeling so that we seek Him, rather than being complacent and doing something just for the sake of habit.... 


Watched a video just now, and couldn't help feeling so touched. 


May Allah bless this speaker and may there be many more like him...


We need da'ies who preach with love, with patience and sincerity... not with hatred and full of judgement of others...


This is just what I think from what's happening now in our beloved country. Sometimes we feel just because we are on the 'right' side we can just throw the truth to everyone else regardless of the background of the listeners. That it's okay to speak harshly, to be cynical, just because we disagree with other people.
Syeikh Mufti Menk's words suddenly popped into my head: Sometimes we fight about who's right or wrong until we forget about what is right or wrong.


Da'wah is an art...
Don't let our rash decisions pull us farther away from the people.
In the end, we are the ones at loss.


And remember that Rasulullah sent his message of tauhid throughout the world full with love.


"Whoever doesn't love, will not be loved"


This is the video that I watched. May it be beneficial for us, insyaAllah...


May Allah guide us to the right path, towards Jannatul Firdaus and keep us away from His Wrath and Hellfire. Amiin.





Kita hanya manusia, dan manusia sering terlupa. Marilah mengingatkan sesama kita, moga berjumpa di syurga~

Assalamu’alaykum warahmatullah wabarakatuh. This is from a lecture by brother Nouman Ali Khan, ‘Majesty of Divine Speech - Characteristics of the People of Jannah’.

Characteristics of the People of Jannah



Surah ‘Ali ‘Imran; 133-136


(133) وَسَارِعُوا إِلَىٰ مَغْفِرَةٍ مِّن رَّبِّكُمْ وَجَنَّةٍ عَرْضُهَا السَّمَاوَاتُ وَالْأَرْضُ أُعِدَّتْ لِلْمُتَّقِينَ
And hasten to forgiveness from your Lord and a garden as wide as the heavens and earth, prepared for the muttaqin (righteous,pious).


(134) الَّذِينَ يُنفِقُونَ فِي السَّرَّاءِ وَالضَّرَّاءِ وَالْكَاظِمِينَ الْغَيْظَ وَالْعَافِينَ عَنِ النَّاسِ ۗ وَاللَّهُ يُحِبُّ الْمُحْسِنِينَ 
Those who spend [in Allâh's Cause - deeds of charity, alms, etc.] in prosperity and in adversity, who repress anger, and who pardon men; verily, Allâh loves Al-Muhsinûn^[] (the good­doers).

Spending when it is easy and when it is difficult. People tend to show gratitude when things are good. We tend to have an attitude to give thanks when we are feeling good. But when things are bad, we feel like we're never going to get it (what we give) back.
Whoever has taqwa Allah will make for him a way out. Rasulullah sallallahu alaihi wasallam promises us that our money will never experience loss when we give sadaqah. Everything we give will be returned to us eventually, and it will be returned and multiplied!
 All because of our taqwa to Allah.

Giving for the sake of Allah subhana wa ta’ala is an opportunity to become more conscious of Allah’s presence. Thus, this strengthens our iman.
Allah subhanah speaks to us in terms of trading for we can understand. Verily what we spend is not ours, even He owns our souls.
Yet Allah says, “If you loan Allah a goodly loan, He will multiply it for you and forgive you. And Allah is Most Appreciative and Forbearing.” (Surah at-Taghabun; 17)

Indeed Allah knows that humans are greedy. Note that in this ayah (‘Ali ‘Imran; 134) Allah does not mention what these people spend. Allah does not specify further thus it is not limited to wealth only. So what you spend here can also include your time, your energy.
It includes your priority for you give, sacrifice, for you invest those you love for the sake of Allah to acquire this attribute of taqwa, and to attain His mercy — Jannah.

The next characteristic: swallowing anger.

And who restrain anger الْكَاظِمِينَ الْغَيْظَ is to swallow anger.

The important thing to understand is swallowing. For example when someone's eating an apple, you can see that the person is chewing it. But when someone swallows it, can you see if something's there? It's gone.

But for us, sometimes when we try to restrain our anger, it still shows on our faces, we have a certain look that people can tell from or a certain behaviour when we're in anger. There's an expression of anger.

The meaning from these ayah is those people completely restrain their anger as though nothing happens; as though nothing is wrong. They do not chew it, but swallow it completely.
They do not express their anger and so there is no chance for the people around them to ask, ‘What’s going on?’ It doesn't even come to that point because they can't even see it in their faces. And they do this continuously, consistently.

And the He says, who pardon the people - those who lovingly forgive the people over and over. You can forgive people and still be mean to them, by mentioning that they have wronged you. What do you achieve by saying that? You are silently insulting him/her. This is a show of arrogance.

When you truly forgive someone it is in private. When you make du'a for yourself you make du'a for him too. In the seerah, sometimes Rasulullah sallallahu 'alaihi wasallam was upset with the sahabah. Until the ayah came down- It is from the mercy of Allah that you are lenient towards them. If you were hard hearted and harsh and stern, they would have run away from you.
The sahabah would have run away from Rasulullah. The sahabah who's iman is much greater than us!

So when you truly forgive someone, do it completely,lovingly and privately and even they make du'a to ask Allah to forgive the people, and never recall to insult. They forgive not for those who don’t deserve, but solely for the sake of Allah.

When someone has wronged you, assume that you have two choices: to continue showing your anger because that person deserves it, or, to forgive that person for the sake of Allah for you can attain His forgiveness? and Allah loves the doers of good; And truly Allah subhanah, our Lord, our Creator, loves those who excel in their deen.

The 3 characteristics:
-those who spend during ease and hardship,
-those who swallows their anger,
-and those who forgive (out of love).

And Allah loves the muhsinin, those who excel in their deen. May Allah make us from them, ameen..

Muslims have to be more forgiving and loving... we can never judge a persona and know where is a person's position with Allah. Maybe that person whom we are harsh to are much closer to Allah than ourselves...
Some people even choose the masajid to pray at just because of differences in ideologies. There is a lack of priority which prevents us from thinking clearly.

The next ayah, after Allah says run to forgiveness and jannah:


(135) وَالَّذِينَ إِذَا فَعَلُوا فَاحِشَةً أَوْ ظَلَمُوا أَنفُسَهُمْ ذَكَرُوا اللَّهَ فَاسْتَغْفَرُوا لِذُنُوبِهِمْ وَمَن يَغْفِرُ الذُّنُوبَ إِلَّا اللَّهُوَلَمْ يُصِرُّوا عَلَىٰ مَا فَعَلُوا وَهُمْ يَعْلَمُونَ
And those who, when they have committed Fahishah (illegal sexual intercourse etc.) or wronged themselves with evil, remember Allâh and ask forgiveness for their sins; - and none can forgive sins but Allâh - And do not persist in what (wrong) they have done, while they know.

And those who, when they commit an immorality فَاحِشَةً means shamelessness, it can be by seeing, words, or eyes, or deeds, anything shameless to fulfill our lust. It is when you do something because you are overwhelmed by lust. And then the next kalimah 'Auzalamu anfusakum' means- or they've wronged themselves. something you do that does not bring any worldly benefit but you do it anyway, i.e jealousy, ghibah, etc. or wrong themselves [by transgression], zakarullah- Remember Allah(immediately) and seek forgiveness for their sins - Allah does not say ‘THEN remember Allah’.

Sometimes when we have wronged someone, we tend to avoid them. Because we feel shamed to have acted in a bad way to them. Syaitan uses this against us. In this condition, we are not doing wrong to our parents or teacher we can avoid, but we have disappointed Allah! While Allah is Most Forgiving.

Another example is when a mother spanks a child. He cries, but who does he run to? His mother, who spanked him in the first place. Why? Because all the other people are strangers, and only she can protect him, even if she's mad at him. He still goes to her. Ponder that for a while. Why do we have to run away from Allah?

Everyone who has sinned, there is still hope :)

So those people mentioned in this ayah — as soon as they did wrongdoing, they remember and mention Allah simultaneously, immediately. And who can forgive sins except Allah? and [who] do not persist in what they have done while they know.  إِلَّا اللَّهُوَلَمْ يُصِرُّوا عَلَىٰ مَا فَعَلُوا وَهُمْ يَعْلَمُونَ
When these people sincerely make tawba, they do not insist upon what they had done. Although one day they would do the sin again, it would be unintentional deed and they would immediately remember Allah and seek forgiveness.

When we have sinned, and we ask forgiveness from Allah, we would feel shame. We have done something hideous and we mention his name, we would feel shame if our tawba is genuine. When you say sorry to someone, you look sorry, you feel sorry. Even more so when we ask Allah for His forgiveness...
May Allah gift us with understanding of this deen.


(136) أُولَٰئِكَ جَزَاؤُهُم مَّغْفِرَةٌ مِّن رَّبِّهِمْ وَجَنَّاتٌ تَجْرِي مِن تَحْتِهَا الْأَنْهَارُ خَالِدِينَ فِيهَا ۚ وَنِعْمَ أَجْرُ الْعَامِلِينَ
Those - their reward is forgiveness from their Lord and gardens beneath which rivers flow [in Paradise], wherein they will abide eternally; and excellent is the reward of the [righteous] workers.

Notice that these characteristics of the people of Jannah are ‘sandwiched’ by the mention of Jannah. SubhanAllah! May Allah make us among these people. Ameen ya Rabbal ‘alameen.

Edited with a few additions from a post on tumblr by ukhti Merubinsu

p/s: Kalau tak ada software nak download video, boleh download 'direct' dari keepvid.com . Masukkan url, dan download. Moga bermanfaat ;-)

p/s2: Please don't ask for my tumblr account :-)

p/s3: Most of the translation was taken from UIA's Quran translation.

Allahua'lam~

Kita hanya manusia, dan manusia sering terlupa. Marilah mengingatkan sesama kita, moga berjumpa di syurga~

Alhamdulillah,
Semalam kami di Bandung ada menerima beberapa tetamu dari Malaysia, Prof Dr Latif dan isterinya, A.Prof Ikram dan isterinya, Dr Al-Amin, Dr Thuwaibah, Dr Fatimah, dan seorang lagi doktor yang saya lupa namanya.
Oh, tak lupa juga dua tetamu dari Gaza! Subhanallah.............mereka...


Sebenarnya tak tahu macammana nak menggambarkan perasaan sejak semalam. Macam sangat... Sangat. Sudahnya mungkin 'sangat' yang menjadi adjektif.


Bagi saya sendiri, pagi tu bermula dengan cara yang tak bestlah. Berkesinambungan daripada hari semalam. Kalut. Sangat. Tetapi tak perlulah diceritakan kat sini kot:) Cumanya, ada sebab mengapa Allah mengangkat lelaki sebagai pemimpin atas kaum wanita. Khalas~


Alhamdulillah, segala persiapan siap sebelum tiba masanya. Peserta pula lambat, jadi program tak dapat dimulakan. Dalam 8.40am baru bermula perasmian dan seterusnya (lambat sekitar 40 minit!)


Kebetulan sewaktu ISMEC, ada tetamu lain dari Malaysia juga (INTESABER) yang request nak buat debate BM BI dengan student Malaysia, dan tarikhnya sama pulak dengan tarikh ISMEC. Sangat kecewa sebab rasa sayaaaang sangat2, tapi kan taqdir Allah telah mendahului. Saya pulak diminta pada saat akhir (walaupun sudah ditolak hari sebelumnya) untuk menjadi hakim debate BI. Barangsiapa memudahkan urusan seseorang di dunia Allah akan permudahkan urusannya di DUNIA dan AKHIRAT! Berat hati nak tinggalkan, tapiii..hm. pergi juga , tak sampai hati nak tolak. (Best juga debate. Menarik dan thought provoking)


Natijahnya, saya ketinggalan sebahagian besar daripada slot Prof Latif :'( Habis je debate, saya lari kembali ke bangunan sebelah. Cepat2 masuk kembali ke dalam dewan. Dan walaupun sekejap, tapi sangat sangat menyentuh hati. Rasanya ada ke yang menangis? Ada kot. Menangis yang membawa kepada perubahan insyaAllah..


Waktu slot 2 habis, masih belum ada yang bertanya sebarang soalan setelah habis slot. Mungkin sedang memproses dan memuhasabah diri. Barangkali ya.


Slot ketiga, forum bermula agak lewat pada perkiraan saya. Santai kali ya, rasanya semua penat dari pagi tak berhenti kecuali sekejap. Walaupun semua dah ada dalam dewan tapi masih sempat berborak, sembang-sembang. Santai.


Moderator saudara A (bukan nama sebenar) mengambil tempat, dengan dua panel (seorang lagi masih dalam perjalanan) Soalan-soalan terkumpul sudah ada di tangan. Masa yang ada kurang lebih dua jam sahaja. Bermulalah sesi soal jawab...


Tiba-tiba, masuk 3 orang manusia ke dalam dewan. Dr Basuki panel ketiga dan... dua orang pelajarnya yang baru tiba sekitar 6 Oktober kelmarin. Sewaktu dia bersalaman dengan kedua2 panel, kami di atas mendengar dia kata 'these are my two students.. from Gaza.'


'Bunyi terkejut' pun keluar dari mulut masing-masing. Ada yang terharu dan touching, yelah, orang dari Gaza!! Dan baruu sahaja tiba ke sini. Dan mengalami sendiri segala apa yang kita cuma lihat dalam video2 di youtube. Waktu tu rasa macam sangat... sangat. *undefined*


Untuk makluman, Prof2 itu semuanya sudah pernah ke Gaza. Jadi mereka sudah bercerita sedikit sebanyak pengalaman dan gambar2 dah dikongsikan.. Namun melihat sendiri di depan mata orang yang disangka kita tak akan pernah jumpa dalam hidup di dunia ni, satu anugerah bagi saya. Kenapa anugerah ya?


Forum pun kembali bersambung. Alhamdulillah, input yang ada sangat berguna untuk diri sendiri. Paling terkesan dengan Prof Latif... experience yang beliau lalui. Kagum sangat2. Ini contoh paling realistik yang pernah dilihat, apa ertinya menjadi orang yang hebat, pada pandangan saya yang dhaif dan hanya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui. Tak sempurna, tak terlalu ideal kerana itulah manusia. Namun perjalanan hidupnya, subhanallah. Boleh terlopong kalau orang yang pertama kali mendengar. Inilah orang yang telah dicelup dengan celupan Allah, sibghatullah, pada pandangan saya. Moga Allah merahmatinya.


Malam itu, ada sesi kedua dengan doktor2 yang tidak hadir pada sebelah pagi. Dapat berjumpa dengan doktor2 perempuan dan isteri doktor dan saling berbagi pengalaman dan nasihat :)







Nasihat terakhir mereka

• Hidup akan tenang apabila membiasakan melakukan istikharah untuk setiap keputusan hidup yang kita lakukan. Akan rasa smoooth je, sebab doanya pun sangat cantik, kan?
• Istiqamahlah. Jangan melakukan kebaikan sekejap lepastu berhenti. Rasulullah sendiri pernah mengatakan (saya lupa riwayatnya, lihat dalam Syarah Riyadhus Solihin) yang untuk mencapai tahap istiqamah dengan sebenar-benarnya, itu mustahil. Kerana setiap orang ada waktu sirrah dan waktu fatrah (waktu kuat semangat dan waktu lemah) Tapi itu tidak menghalang kita untuk berusaha bukan? Kerana ada sebab besar disebaliknya. Walau apapun, kita tetap akan berusaha untuk mendapatnya!
• Kisah Abu Ayyub Al-Ansari radhiallahu anhu, banyak kali sudah didengari. Kali ini bila mendengar, terasa lain. Kisah Sultan Muhammad Al-Fatih, acapkali dihadam. Namun kali ini juga, mungkin disebabkan penyampainya, terasa lebih mencuit sanubari. Hakikatnya, mereka percaya akan sesuatu yang mereka tidak nampak! Mereka percaya dengan sebenar-benar yakin bahawa merekalah yang akan memenangkan Islam. Walaupun usia sudah 90 tahun, azam sejak muda itu tidak pernah pudar! Dan hatta jika tidak berjaya sekalipun, dia tetap mahu berada hampir dengan tempat kegagalannya, untuk melihat kejayaan di depan mata walaupun digapai oleh orang lain. Semuanya kerana sebuah janji. Janji insan mulia yang sangat dirindui, Muhammad sallallahu 'alaihi wasallam.
• Semuanya akan merasa sukar jika kita tidak merasa 'izzah dengan Islam. La Izzata Illa Bil Islam, ya?
  Yakin, bangga, dan semangat untuk bekerja untuk Islam dan sentiasa melakukan yang terbaik untuk Islam.
•  Tambahan diri sendiri: Have a big heart. A big vision. What do you want to achieve? Not only for yourself but for your ummah! Stop being selfish and thinking all the time about what you have gotten. What you've lost. What you want. Stop. And think about what you can give. With what you have now, how have you touched the life of others? And how much have you sacrificed? Have big dreams. Dream big, and believe it. Try your best to fulfill it. Be whatever you have to be to make that dream come true. Don't worry, we're humans. We're highly adaptive to change, especially positive ones. :)